I’m back… Laying My Disgust & Shame Out There for ALL to See =\

It’s been a while since I was on last; I keep falling off the workout wagon, and back on and off, etc… Well, I’m back again. I have a new-found motivation!!!

I’ve been telling you guys how much of a fat-ass I am… Thankfully, but not happily, I was decently proportioned to have been in the 200 Club, but embarrassed as hell to have made it there. Not only embarrassed, but truly disgusted at myself. I only have the nerve to post what the scale shows, but have and will continue to take progression pix am sure I will post them when I’m more comfortable in my skin. I’m by no means happy where I am, but slow and steady can and will win the race.

I don’t have a “goal” weight, as eventually, I want to start lifting and putting on some muscle/mass/tone. Podiatrist told me to hold off on CrossFit until the tendonitis has gotten a little better but I can do the Zumba/ aerobics types of classes [damn it, but at least I can do something] –

I honestly haven’t given it “100%”, but I have been eating a lot better and going to Zumba 3 x/week and taking 2 “alternate” classes on top of that – Bodyvive, Bodypump (at the Y) – while I am not “allowed” to do CrossFit…They also put me thru the ringer at physical therapy (tendonitis) for ah hour x2/week….

In the past month, a loss of 1.5 pounds for a weekly average isn’t all that bad. 6.2 pounds in a month x 4 months = about 25 pounds. I’ll take that. Progress is progress.

Since I’m getting over ‘tummy trouble’ issues, (I had either food poisoning or a 48 hour bug) – I figure it’s best to go ahead and start eating as healthy as possible now, since I’ve pretty much detoxed from anything with sugar already, & I’ve been doing either nothing or broth / clear liquids for a day… [Was also able to hold down organic broccoli/cheddar soup today! YAY!] – I intend to start eating waay better than before and get serious with the workout & adding more cardio to my schedule.

I’m posting a goal dress that I bought for about 6 months down the road… Of course, that isn’t me in the pic.. and a goal swimsuit for 6 months thereafter.. (Unless I find another one I like before then LoL)…

Sadly, below is the visual proof of the skeleton in my closet. My disgust, my embarrassment… My weight problem… Hopefully, by my birthday (August) I’ll be down at least 15 more lbs. Then in a few more months starting to show some “real” progress.

I hope this embarrassment of mine, and the pix that follow in the upcoming months can and will help motivate some of you, too!! I’m hoping that for me it provides strength to move forward and keep pushing to better myself.